Poetry Burns

Archive for November, 2011|Monthly archive page

Pt 1

In New Love, Uncategorized on November 30, 2011 at 9:29 am

It’s imperative that I stare at him

Can’t take my eyes off of him

If you saw, I know you’d understand.

Forgotten where I left off, all I know is I got distracted

Got to be proactive

Knee-jerk reactin’

If I’m gonna make a difference at all

Now is my chance, got to resign to the free fall.

Counting the days since I met him

Don’t know why it feels like weeks when it’s only been days

Been walking on air since that Wednesday, we first met each other’s gaze

Wandering together in this dual-purpose maze.

 

Final Curtain

In Uncategorized on November 30, 2011 at 9:22 am

Different players, same game.

Knock down these walls that I’ve made.

It’s going to feel the same when you break me.

The same when you take me, for granted like the last one.

I’m waiting, on the edge of my seat.

What will this time’s catalyst be?

It’s always me in one way or the next,

Who am I to rewrite history when it will do the job all by itself.

The same cycle, playing on repeat.

You and me.

Together, so happy.

One day to the next,

Nothing is certain.

Tell me what is behind,

Could it be the final curtain? 

This is Where We Are

In Uncategorized on November 26, 2011 at 6:18 pm

I’m a handful, this I am sure.

This puzzle that I’m trying to piece together

Searching for the pieces and the corners, the border

It’s falling apart but I’m scrambling to make it work.

Be who you want me to be, but am I ready to change?

You just want me to be happy and that is sweet.

My insecurities creep through and permeate everything

Shading our moments with grey

 

 

$olitude

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 12:23 pm

Do you think I’m some mind reader?

Silence is not golden when it’s 100% available.

It’s cheap like I feel.

Buy me off again so I can brag to my friends.

Gets you off the hook, you think?

I’m sharpening it now.

You can’t buy my love,

I can buy my own.

I’m not interested in your impressive shit,

If you can’t even be bothered to pick up a phone.

Let me know when I’m not alone.

So here I am.

Alone.

My Last Poem For You

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 12:18 pm

You came over late last night.

Caught a cab because you love me.

Trapped in this maze we’ve made.

Unclear but still so familiar.

Can’t back down from you.

There you are and

Everything else just fades away.

Who are we to deny what’s human?

Leaving early, both satisfied.

We both know where we stand,

It’s a dirty mess but we love it.

Degrading, debauchery.

We embrace it.

Rolling in the mud with you could be the last thing I do,

But if it’s not I know you’d want it too.

Whisper sweet nothings to me like old times,

Remember we are jaded now.

It’s different in so many ways.

Though it’s identical to what we remember.

Is that why we come back?

We’re looking to repeat a history we never knew could be worth repeating.

So Simple

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 12:13 pm

All of this torment, all of this pain.

The regret can’t piece me together again.

I’m lost in my thoughts tonight.

Stumbling for explanations to erase my fright.

Too much, too soon.

It’s a plateau and now I’m staring down,

Down all we fall is down.

Flailing for a reason to recapture what we only wished was there.

Imagine a world with no looking back.

Wondering why it hurts but too selfish to care.

Awake again tonight, but it’s not the way you’d hope it was.

I’m evolving in my own world and you’re drifting further out to sea.

Farther away from me, and you don’t even care.

Investing myself into a hollow shell.

All I get in return is an echo.

Taunting me with past words whispered,

Private moments spinning on repeat.

Deafening me until it’s all I can hear.

Why am I still so alone?

I’m even alone right next to you.

It’s not right.

I’m waiting for you to see it, too.

You are too wrapped up in you.

Doomed.

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 12:04 pm

I’m erased.

Start again but I’m not the same.

Somewhere a wrong turn and I’m aimless, wandering.

Repeating, repeating.

Never an end in sight.

Never an end that’s right.

The end never justifies the means.

What does that mean?

I’m still here.

I’m still waiting.

You’re undecided and I’m burning.

Leaving behind a pile of ash you’ll only see as dust.

Swept under the rug again, forgotten.

I’m alone.

Tremors, shaking.

I’m falling.

It’s a long way down.

I’ve known it for too long.

I’m doomed and always wrong.

Last Call Possession

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 12:00 pm

There’s a Devil inside me tonight.

I’m sure I don’t know why.

He’s telling me to do things, crazy things!

I’m sure I’ll listen tonight.

Grab a handful of my hair.

Pull it tighter or I may die.

He’s letting me out tonight.

Taking over my body.

Feeding on my soul.

Then I just let go.

I’m dancing on the outside.

Writhing in a crowd, so many bodies.

Can’t tell when one ends and the other begins.

Dancing with the Devil tonight.

If it’s wrong you know I don’t wanna be right.

Take me on this dance floor,

Meet me by the side door.

Under the exit sign at 1:59

Last call posession.

This Devil wants a piece of you.

Don’t know what he might do.

Are you scared to find out?

Early Stages

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 11:48 am

I want to bottle this feeling.

Put it away somewhere and come back to it when you first disappoint me.

When you leave me I want to be able to rewind it.

Start over and know where it went wrong.

I want this to be forever.

I want something real.

So raw, so open, is it too soon?

I will never be ready.

Don’t know if it’s safe to look into your eyes like I am but I know it feels right.

I’m holding my head in my hands, sleepless again.

If it’s too good to be true do I give up?

I’m always the one gave up on.

 

&

In Uncategorized on November 18, 2011 at 11:42 am

It’s the catalyst,

I feel enough for the both of us!

Never stop – my minds on over drive & all you do is drive!

I’m annoyed this time, you’re clueless & I’m fatal!

Hold on, are you there?

It’s 11:00 & I’m getting some sun.

Shut it all off.

Time out & I’m on your level.

Without you I can forget now it’s so pure, so simple.

Shut it off & let’s go. It’s almost too late.

My affections wax & wane.

Either your different or you’re all the same.

I’m a player in this game, but I’m asking for a time out.

Under pressure don’t need to know what you’re about.

Make me wanna shout!

Somebody shut my mouth!